TeaRs & FeArS

Help me stay sane.

Why do I still feel crazy when just ONE of his friends gather with me?

Why do I feel uneasiness when friends say they are all getting married and pregnant?

I saw another recent picture of him and actually am thinking he looks good. 

Since I no longer check his profile on Friendster / Facebook, why do I still react when he jokingly changed his status to "married".

I don't think I can take it when he actually does, and I am still alone. I can't take it that I have given the best of me and am not good enough for someone. I can't take it that hardwork means nothing in emotional sense. It does not work that way.

I can't find peace on my own. I can't find peace as long as I am within contact of him.

I need to disappear, recover.

Or I need strength to stay sane in Singapore.

Can I withdraw and stay with single friends on my own? 

I think my mental health is going wry. 

Please let me chant to a fast track of emotional peace, mental and physical health.

Please help me.