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12 January 2008
Internet
Wah, restraint my use of the internet so he can go online and chat with this J****** freaking girl.
Selfish idiot! WHO IS PAYING FOR THE INTERNET? And you think its your right to use it when you need it?!
Everynight! When will he grow up?
Idiot
Everyone is an idiot!
When will my skin heal, EVER? then my relatives won't keep trying to get me to go Melbourne!
What is it with them! I told them I am only making my initial entry for a week! I am not intending to stay in Melbourne at all! What is it with "when are you coming here for good?" "Your skin is much better here and its only getting worse there and you have a bald patch on your head already" "stress here is much lower" "'job opportunities here are good"
GIVE IT UP ALREADY!
I don't want to leave and then come back once a year to see my parents aging too fast without my knowing and feeling heartache seeing them much older then when I last saw them.
I want them to grow old by my side.
I don't trust my brother with them. And even though I hate them from time to time, they are, after all, the only two who loves me on this earth.
Leave me alone.
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11 January 2008
Disgusted
Absolutely disgusted. Ultimately disgusted.
All men are the same. They can't be trusted.
My brother broke off with his girlfriend of 5 years. He told me only a month later. I was sad, cause I was reminded of my own pain. So sad I almost cried for this. My own pain all coming back to me again. I won't say its unexpected. But when I asked who initiated, I got a great shock.
"YOU were the one? AGAIN!? What is it with you? Committment issues? Back in this life to take revenge on girls cause you were rejected all the time in your previous life or what? What do you have to xian qi ta? She has all to xian qi ni! You have nothing to offer her, yet what she did for you for the past 5 years has been that of a very sensible, matured girlfriend. Doing all for your own good. Ni Ping Shen Me? You have a committment issue or what?............."
His reason? " I no longer enjoy being with her....... and we have nothing in common...."
"From the start???!!!!! Geez, and all relationship gets stagnant! So what happens in marriages? Divorce cause it got stagnant?! all relationships require maintenance! Keeping the fire alive! what kind of excuses are those!?"
He then explained that the recent trip to HongKong with X**** was his last attempt to rebuild the relationship, hoping to realise he still loves her. That it was a difficult decision, and that was why he "dragged" the relationship.
I asked of his 3 girlfriends, which he loved the most. He mentioned the 2nd one. And which he thinks loved him the most, he also mentioned the 2nd one to be the one. He also said that she was too possessive. My opinion? X**** invested more sincerity, care, concern, TIME, YOUTH, thoughts on him then any other. Respecting his privacy and all.
Damn.
This is not exactly the disgusting part. The disgusting part is shortly after he broke the news to me, I realise he is very much part of the life of another girl. 2 years younger than X****. Everynight he would log-on to the internet to talk to that Jas**** person through Skype. Idiot. What a creep. One month, and he likes another already. He probably liked her first, then broke up with X****.
Jerk! Like my ex-es. All the same. Freaking jerks! Always leaving one for another younger one.
Then I realised I don't even want to be near my brother, cause he reminds me too much of my ex. The same aura.
Get away from me!
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