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31 December 2007
I can't cope with my work, get me out of here. Should I tender tmr??
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30 December 2007
Broke, tired, empty.
Damn broke,
Bad year ahead financially I can tell.
CPA causing me brain and wallet damage, work giving me countless challenges.
Will I reach my dream of becoming an Assistant Manager earning $3.8 by 31?
Doubt it. Come to think of it, that is quite unrealistic.
Feel helpless in the new firm, everyone is new. Turnover is high and the old-timers jumping ship, because of the good economy and tough times ahead with new system implementation.
That means, heavy-timed meetings, causing work backlog and overload, UATs, more meetings, parallel running, coupled with the financial year-end audit in April08 that clashes with UATs.
Stupid timing, what made them plan like that?! And the head office had to be so stupid.
I have went back office to work this weekend. About 10 hours yesterday and today I worked for 8 hours. My weekends going to be burnt like that for the next 6 months of closing.
And as I mentioned before, the staff here are f**king arrogant, young, gradutes, who have seen nothing but think they know everything. Called "young and dynamic"? I call them young and f**king rude, pampered things. Seen too many of those, married pampered, stayed long in the company think they know the whole company upside down, not open-minded and unreceptive to new ideas and attitude problem.
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26 December 2007
Impractical
Amazingly impractical.... STILL!
Saw W****'s picture on facebook. Ever so beautiful, a star. She should go be a star. What is she doing getting our accounting field's rice bowl?
And I thought, what made him think he can EVER have her?~ Based on what? Looks, none, money, she has more, education, she is better. Ummmm......
He bought a MacBook. I asked how much it cost. He said $3.5K and that it wiped out his savings.
Then he talked about how irrational that is, that he has to think in a way to please the situation and so take it as an investment.
And he still owes his mum's friend his diploma studies money. And that will probably never be returned. Its a debt maybe 4 years old.
"I think I can afford to be irrational this time. When older, I must think more."
My guess? He will never be able to fight temptations, cause he goes with his reckless feelings. He will remain the same.
Stupid
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24 December 2007
New Year Celebration
There are friends, and there are friends.
Some friends you want nothing to do with anymore. Some you want to meet once in a while.
I have many I want to do nothing with anymore. Those insensitive to my feelings, when they gather in couples and pairs and I am the only single person in that social gathering.
Those insensitive to my non-achievements, and bring their career woes to confide with me.
Some insensitive to my eczema and size status and tell me about themselves being fat and ugly.
I don't want to spend my New Years with them. No way am I joining them for a New Year celebration.
Some I want to be close to, but are not close to me. Takes two hands to clap.
I don't want to be alone next Christmas and New Year holiday season.
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23 December 2007
New Year Resolutions
1. Get my CPA program completed SUCCESSFULLY.
2. Get confirmed in my current firm.
3. Impress superiors and get commendation.
4. Chant more regularly to get my eczema completely healed without any more creams, and for parents to be happier and wiser, and for brother to be more mature and less selfish.
5. Lose weight. STARVE.
6. Be as sucessful as peers, earning a competitive salary comparable to theirs. Else, break all contacts.
hmmm.......
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15 December 2007
What happens now?
I failed CPA113 AGAIN! Third time in a row!
WHY?
And I was sooooooooooo confident that I will pass this time round, with the change in the exam structure and the easy case study.
I STILL FAILED!
I dun understand why this is always happening to me?! At first in uni, it was Company Law, I took 4 tries to pass it. Then it was Accounting Theory, I took 3 tries to pass with distinction. And this time round its this paper. And the last round I thought I will pass with distinction too!
Damn I was sooo upset! I wrote a desperate e-mail to the person in charge of this paper "what happens if I pass all the subjects but this one, and fulfilled all other requirements? I spent so much time and money, and now I don't get my CPA because of ONE paper? I know its a compulsory segment but please is there any other way?"
All I get as a reply was "this is a compulsory capstone segment. Without passing this, you will not get your CPA status."
DAMN.
Was so upset, wrote another e-mail to confide in my aunt.
My aunt pushed me again to go to Melbourne. "There is uni night courses for CPA subjects. Come over and take these lessons and consult the lecturers here. You will probably pass!"
I have heard of those lessons. But moving to melbourne will spoil my whole career path. No way I can compete with those confident out-spoken angmohs in impressing people during interviews.
Looking at my peers, who are complaining that they are trying to beat the HDB deadline within which the income requirement will soon be fixed at $8K and below. And they are all saying how they will hit the income bracket soon. I realised how much a failure I am. $8K! If their hubby, at the age of 35 and below, earns like the maximum 5K, doesn't that mean my friends are earning like $3.5K and above? DAMN I am so blooddy Chao Ji Wu Di Man in my career progression! I only earned $3.5 for 3mths, then kena change in company cause not confirmed in my previous good job. and now stuck in a firm with $3.2k a month.
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLPPPP!!! I am such a failure.
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11 December 2007
F***ing Rude
People here are so so so rude.
What is their problem?
Funny how I land up in this firm. I never liked this particular country, its culture or people. Yet I am eating their foods, chanting their buddhist script and working in one of their biggest firm.
2nd working day and checking their travel claims. Found errors and so returned them to the relevant people for correction. And what they could say was "don't return so much in future!" As if it's under my control that you guys make the error! I don't want to seem incompetent and give a whole batch of errorneous Payment Request to my superior!
And the people here are again, soooooo rude. it was only my 2nd week here and how am I supposed to know what has been going on. Just felt that several depts are against us, the Finance. Be it on the phone, or when my boy went to look for them, they give the attitude as if we owe them a million dollars. This is confirmed with my colleagues who have been ticked off several times rudely by them. And these rude ones, surprisingly, are CONTRACT staff!!!!
First week, I endure. Second week closing, so too busy to deal with them. Third week and I am at my lowest tolerance level. Give it any more tries and I will snap.
I found myself terribly revengeful. Where people have annoyed me, especially if they treat my subordinates badly, I will go find something where they do wrong to shoot them back, in person. Protective nature? Maybe.
I have to endure for 3 years. I want to be able to stay for at least 3 years. Hopefully I can do it.
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