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22 September 2007
All that matters in the family.
So, my family's utilities bill comes up to around S$450/- each month.
And I contribute only S$500 a month, given to my parents S$250 each. As to how they spend the money, I leave it to them.
My take home pay is just slightly over S$2,500 and I am considered in the middle income range. People can survive with just take home pay of barely S$1,200 a month!
But my parents are very disappointed because my brother is not making family contributions yet at the ripe age of 26 and I am barely making much.
I do not have much left after my medical expenses and CPA fees. Yes I do splurge too, I am guilty of splurging on food, facials and massages. I am also now supporting my brother's university fees.
I am not the kind that wants to be highly successful in the corporate world. I will be happy living with whatever monetary rewards I can earn, and in a small flat.
But my parents have the vision that me and my brother can take over the expenses of the house. In Singapore, to earn as much as my dad did and be able to support a family of 4 with the high living expenses in a terrace, is an amazing feat to many.
I do have much appreciation for him slogging out his life to give us so much but we have taken it for granted somehow. And I do not expect myself to be able to do the same.
One minute he can tell me to save up for myself as I will not be married and the next he is disappointed I am not making enough contribution. I do not have much to spare. I explained that I will take over the utilities bill after my brother graduate but they smirked and shook their heads. If I go according to their wishes, I will not have any to save at all for my "singlehood".
I have resigned to fate that my life is more or less fixed and planned out by my parents and I do not have a way out. To heaps of people, I dare say 80%, to have earned the Australian immigration visa and yet not utililise it at all is a complete waste. People are applying and not getting it, and the requirements are getting tougher each year. And I just let it waste by, letting the clock tick to the due date.
But this is my life.
I take it all in. I will support my brother through uni, then I will have nothing more to do with him. Parents will never accept me for who I am, and I will not accept them nor my brother either.
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04 September 2007
Squeeze me dry
He just wants to squeeze me dry.
He does things for me, such as picking me up to go home when he is convenient.
Anything else, he won't move an inch.
He said so himself "who care about how you think or what you want to do?"
I offer to support him his school fees and he goes "you just want me to fulfil your expectations of me". MAYBE.
And he takes the money like his rights.
Everything else, he wants us to serve him.
Something as simple as the person turning something on, then that person should switch it off. I have to clean up after him.
Let time pass quickly with work, finish supporting his fees, and let me have nothing to do with him.
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